July full moon Fox

[saph]

It was late afternoon and she was camped infront of her tv playing a video game while she waited for the sun to set. She was dressed in a plan tank top and a pair of jeans that were so cut up that they were barely being held together. Likely wouldn't make it through another washing.

She sighed her hair pulled back into a high pony tail and no make up on her face she was bare foot she'd already packed her over night bag and it was waiting by the front door.

[kusaji]

The streets slowly passed by as his driver was following the directions gaven off by the GPS navigator almost as if to memorize the way towards saphyres sanctuary. He had no classes today and even stayed away from bernie, when all he wanted was to feel her in his arms. The familiar feeling of his beast pacing back and forth, almost taunting him to get out. He'd close his eyes and placed himself in a calm place within his mind. He'd just temporarily calm down his erratic levels. He'd look up at the sky as he seen the afternoon only turn into a later hour as the car would come to a halt.

"We're here sir shall i leave you tonight?"

"Yea Ralph please, don't worry i'll be fine.[/b]"

Stepping out of the car he'd be only in a pair of gym like shorts and a wife beater type top. He had on a pair of old shoes, but no socks. He'd walk up to saphyres door and knock on it.

[saph]

Saphyre heard the knock and got up pausing the game. And went to the door. The peep hole had been moved but she more felt Kusa on the other side of the door. She didn't need to look to know it was him. She opened the door and steped outof the way so he could come in. She smiled as she spoke.

"Hey come on in Kusa. Relax and get comfortable. We wont leave here for a little while yet. Feel free to help yourself to anything in the kitchen. Eating regularly helps keep thebeast from rising as easily."

She shut the door behind him as he came in and she sauntered further into the condo. There was 2 or 3 pairs of shoes next to the door and yeah she was barefoot. She wasn't going to tell him shoes off simply for the fact it was going to be a rough night tobegin with. Fist time he wasn't going to be alone and all.

She picked up the controller and of all the games she was playing dr mario on an old netindo.

[kusaji]

Watching the door open he’d peer around the outside and then step inside the threshold of her condo his head turned upwards at the ceiling. It was different than his home, yet cozy and welcoming in the feel. He’d look in her eyes and flash a smile, even though his mind seemed to be a non stopping thought, as he figured how to calm it.

“Thank you, It’s nice here and nah I don’t need food, just a calm quiet place I can sit and meditate to calm down and at least ease my emotions and my beast, then maybe I can eat.[/b]”

He’d take off his shoes and lay them aside as he wrinkled his toes and then looked at her playing a video game. It was nostalgic to see an old Nintendo played on the screen in front of him. He’d sit beside her and cross his legs. A few deep breaths in and out of his lungs as his eyes fluttered behind closed eyes. His hands move to his wife beater and took it off showing the kanji that was fully along his shoulders starting at the very top of his shoulders all the way down to his short line and all the way from right to left. Breaths moved in and out again as he heard the oddly calming sound of the Dr. Mario game in the back ground.

“Meditation is always a great way to calm and relax ones body, I found it kind of helps numbing the pain, at least for a little while.[/b]”

[saph]

Another level cleared and she looked over at him. "I wasn't offering food incase you were hungry I was offering because it helps settle the beast. Food, sex, meditation. All of them help calm and relax the beast. "

She tapped away if anything this was her own form of meditation it was relaxing in a weird way puzzle solving. She reached out to him in that way she had learned her beast rubbing along his no matter what it was going to be a full moon no matter how hard you try the beasts were close to the surface. And it was easier to sooth and easier to rise.

"After a while it doesn't hurt any more. And usually after about 6 months to a year you start remembering what happens while your in that form. Sometimes its just dreams. But once you accept it into yourself its easier everything is easier. there are hungers and there are hungers. "

"You can never have real control over the beast you just have to make peace with it. High emotional states pain, anger, sometimes lust can all trigger it Pleasure the feeling of release. Those too can trigger a change. Not veryone can have an emotional handle on themselves. It bring the beast closer the beast is part of those emotions."

She went quiet for a bit so he could absorb all of that. And waiting knowing questions would eventually arrise.

[kusaji]

“I see so anything that releases a endorphin in the brain, either a full stomach, which produces a happiness, Sex which is a way to work frustration and produces calm sensations, or meditation to be perfectly calm and clear minded… all lull the beast Interesting never knew this, well I did about the meditation but not the other two.[/b]”

Watching the level clear he’d seen how it relaxed her and she seemed at an inner peace within herself, not reading too much into the state she was in. He’d feel the pacing back and forth of his beast and every now and again the feeling of its head butting against the cage as if to tell him, today he would be getting out. His eyes would close again and his breaths would be to place him back in a calm state of mind. He’d achieve it quickly and then open his eyes, already the golden band around his pupil started to streak outwards spiraling in his normal color adding golden flecks to his eyes that glimmer in the sunlight.

“I look forwards to the day it doesn’t, but I have fought it since day one, I haven’t exactly just let it happen, I am determined today will be the day I just let it wash over me, to n longer fight what it is, I figured, today I’d show it that I accept it as a part of me. So the dreams I have that are me in vivid detail as afox, aren’t just messages from the beast but the actual happenings of when I shift?[/b]”

Softly spoken in words came his questions and well his own mind ramblings more than anything really. His breathing again would speed up some and then his chi began bouncing around at a erratic rate, he’d feel it deep inside his person, a primal calling of the moon that would be high within the skies this night.

“I see so emotional distress and emotional times, brings the beast closer to us, so it’s how well you can control those times, will control the shifting, so you could induce those feelings, and let yourself not control it thus forcing a shift.. I get it, well at least the shift part how it works and what not.[/b]”

He’d look outside from his sitting position and just waits for the timing, yes at this time his meditation was telling the beast it’d not have to fight this time, he’d accept its calling. His parents judgment could no longer effect him here.

[saph]

Saphyre cleared another level it was almost mindless in a way.

"Well sex so I am told is a double edged sword. When you climax or reach a release with your partner you shift. Because your literally letting go of your control when that happens. My brother told me he's had it happen once. But He has since learned to control it. Sex apparently both helps keep the beast satisfied and it can trigger a change for all the same reasons as high emotional states. But Yeah a full belly and plenty of execise meditation what have you keeps the beast underwraps."

She shifted her own beast was restless wanting out on its own. Normally content until night fall when the moon would rise and the fox would flow out while the human vanished inward.She took out another level and another level the quiet sounds of the game their own version of monotone.

" Dreams of the fox doing things sometimes liek an out of body experience almost you recognize what your doing and the like. Eventually you wont need to remember in dreams you'll remember it very much as though you just woke up from a dream. But yeah thats what those dreams are I bet you remember vivid details such as smells and things you see in the areas of the dreams as though they are still trapped in you nose."

Another level flashed by on the screen as she thought about some of the things she would need to tell him. She wished her mother was here even just to remind her she didn't want to take anything for granted. Or even assume that he knew.

"once you figure out how to change freely you kinda figure out the reverse however if you do it to quick you'll sleep for roughly 8 hours in your human form because shifting that rapidly is a shock to the system to both really. It leaves you vulnerable. Even I can't do that. At work i do two acts one of my human form merging into my beast and then later another of just my beast. I have a fan following all its own by the furries."

She cringed when she said that one.

"But I have to wait at least 4 to 6 hours before i can shift back to human without passing out for almost 8 hrs. And then I need to eat because it takes alot of energy. It has costs being able to do it. You feel hungry more at times then others. "

She glanced out the glass doors the led out onto a balcony that over looked part of the city. It was approaching dusk moon rise was in an about an hour. It was time to go. She was more restless now. She quit the game and walked over to the consol and turned it off hitting the power button on the tv next.

"Did you bring a spare set of clothes?"

She'd ask looking over her shoulder at him.

[kusaji]

The clearing of another level rang in his head as he flexed his body some feeling his muscles tense and bulge just a bit, showing off more a martial artist body structure than body building. He’d nod some as her explanation seemed to make sense and confuse him all at once.

“I see, s o if you totally let control go you shift automatically in a high stressed or high emotional point? Well that proves to be helpful to know in the very least.[/b]”

His mind went to Bernie for some odd reason wondering if that would ever happen to him and her if they ever physically entangled themselves in a act of love, it kind of made him on nerve. However as he looked outside, he couldn’t help to think what Bernie was going through, was she ok, would she feel pain. Sadness swept over his face wishing he could be there with her, but knew he couldn’t. His head however snapped back to his reality feeling his beast getting closer and closer to the surface, as afternoon was swallowed by dusk.

“Yea. That is exactly what happens after I wake up, a big headache as flashes take me through sporadic events that happened, in great detail, but also without any detail at all. Smells if I walk by places trigger the event in my mind even more. It’s interesting really how it all comes to be like one huge hangover.[/b]”

His mind reeled on her words taking it all in at once letting each diverse part of her conversation sink in and in his mind forms its own translation of what she was trying to explain to him. He’d look at her with a puzzled look as she began speaking again.

“I see, so there is consequences to the shift well if you start to try and do it with a faster speed and a unnatural back and forth process. I get that part easy enough I guess, I mean it’s not hard to see how much energy exchanging between shifts, the outputs would tax anybody.[/b]”

Hearing she had a following with the furries only caused a half chuckle and even then it sounded a slight nervous tone. His beast was growing more and more calling on his form to let it go, he’d close his eyes and promised it soon, very soon it would be allowed to be out. The feeling creeping closer and closer to the edge of his flesh, to the point he felt the stinging sensation of the oncoming change.

“Yea, my overnight bag has clothing, and everything[/b]”

He’d take out his lip rings, earrings, nose ring, eye brow ring, and finally his tongue ring setting them in a case, next were all his rings that he lain on a table for safe keeping, he knew it was time.

[saph]

She picked up a beat to hell and back canvas hiking pack. And slid her bare feet into a pair of old worn sneakers. There were holes in her jeans large enough to fit a whole hand through.

She looked back at him. Her face was rather black except for her eyes. Which at the moment were obviously those of her beast. They hadn't changed from how they normally looked but for the first time you could really tell they were the eyes of an animal and nothing human.

"I wouldn't know about the sex thing honestly. I only know what I have been told about it by my mom and my brother he and I share alot of things. we're the oldest. But they tell me that you can learn to have a release without a climax I don't know how though much less how its suposed to work.

"As for other emotions when you loose control yeah. Those I have had happen when I was younger. Its how my first change happened. I'd been in dance classes since I was two. And finally one of my brothers did something and I lost it. Next thing i know its the next day and I was waking up in my room being watched by my mum. Its not fun that way."

She smiled slightly hearing him agree to what she said about the memories being dreams and triggered by scent at times.

"I went through that about 6 months after i nearly ate my brother. He survived and so did I we are closer for it now. But it gets easier to process after a while. Eventually you'll be able to recall at will if you want and know easily what you have been doing and be able to make choices and do it at will."

Consequences... There were always those.

"There is always consequences for everything its a matter of checks and balances without it everything would fall into a kind of chaos."

She looked up at him. Watching him take out the various piercings

"Grab your bag its time to go." She slung her pack over a shoulder as she opened the front door.

[kusaji]

Picking up his yellow tie at the top back pack style bag, he’d sling it over his shoulder still shirtless, not really minding, straitening his shorts as he stood he’d open the strings, not wanting to mess up his tennis shoes so instead pulled out a pair of Tabi from his bag and slipped them on his feet. The string between having been tied many times he’d put his shoes in the bag. His eyes fully glimmered over, the itch only contained by his own will at the moment. The feeling, the pulse… everything sped up as he seen the tangled colors within the sky causing the premonition of the night soon to come. He’d shiver some and close his eyes and then opened them fully as he seen things in different spectrums and colors his eyes now much more feral as he had the full eyes of his beast as they stared back into hers.

“I wouldn’t know, I wasn’t born with it I was just bitten and the strand was adopted into my body. In fact I don’t exactly remember what set off my first shift, and I know it wasn’t a full moon that night, but I guess during meditation I must have lost something in control and well it caused the shift. Though now I believe I understand what it is much better now.[/b]”

He’d look at her and scratch his head some at his scalp and then his neck as he felt his teeth clench and tighten in his jaw structure. Opening again and adjusting his jaws locked position. The 6 months to a year thing seemed to confuse him as it had been three, and he couldn’t do this at all. Biting on his lip nervously he’d shrug.

“I am totally behind the learning curve then, as its 3 years and I still can’t even recall things at will. Even in meditation, they don’t come to me and that’s when my mind is the clearest it could ever hope to be.[/b]”

Hearing the front door open, his hand tightened on the strap of his backpack and then proceeded to step out the threshold and look up at the dusk sky. His beast butting heads so close to the surface as he caught a feint glimpse of the moon in the sky shivering some as he could feel his heart race and speed up, his breath elevating as well.

“Calm down, not yet… not yet.[/b]”

He’d whisper to just his self to calm it down until it was time.